I’ve decided I really need an “Off-Switch”. Sometimes I just can’t stop my mind from going over and over things.
I’m still re-living the broken arm, it just doesn’t make sense how it happened and when it happened. I’m really beginning to wonder if maybe I missed something in the Go-cart crash that happened just a little over two-weeks before the arm did break.
I know Austin has a very high tolerance of pain which is very frustrating for me.
He had a lot of discomfort, pain and swelling with the groin injury and I wonder could it have masked something else that was wrong? Could he have had a fracture, hairline or not, that was already there? I’m thinking that might have been possible, we were all so focused on the injury to the family jewels area that maybe I missed the other injury.
I’ve got to let it go but I’m wondering if I need to be a little more diligent when it comes to injuries but how do I do this without becoming an extreme helicopter mom, without driving him nuts (well maybe I should drive him a little nuts as payback for how he’s impacted my sanity J). The other question might be how do I do this with medical staff so they don’t question my sanity?
Not sure if there is a fix. Nobody said motherhood would be easy, there was an expiry date or I would be perfect but damn I wish sometimes that there was a better owner’s manual for Austin.
Don't beat yourself up by replaying it over and over in your mind. I know that is easier said than done because I would probably be dong the same thing. Being a mom is hard enough without worrying about what could have been different. I beat myself up a lot when I relay things in my mind when wondering if I should of handled a meltdown differently. Sometimes no matter how you handle it it don't alway turn out the best. While other times everything works right out. Love and hugs
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